I’ve been reading Lean In, by Sheryl Sandberg, and she asks, “What would you do if you weren’t afraid?” I keep thinking about it, mulling it over in my head on the subway. It gives me anxiety; it gives me joy. It kind of feels like falling in love. What a liberating thought to take away the fear of financial constraint,, parents’ opinions, society’s conventions, and mostly for me – self-doubt. As I keep thinking of the question,, the night sky comes to mind. Many children have a fear of darkness, Bedtime can be a struggle for some kids. I’m sure it’s how velvety black the sky can get, and all the unknown possibilities. I was never afraid of the dark. I liked sleeping. Sleep brought me vivid, surreal dreams, and it still does. But now, maybe I’ve become afraid of the dark? Afraid of the unknown? I can’t tell when my core shifted, but it makes me sad and anxious. I want to live my dreams, not just dream them.